with the new ergonomic keyboard at work, i am discovering that i type many letters with the improper hand. it's slowing down my 90+ wpm pace, but i'm actually enjoying the challenge, as these days i find myself in the office more and need more things to keep me busy anyway.

note to self: switch hands for the letters y and b.

as i've been taking the bus to work every morning, i'm starting to recognize a lot of the bus drivers who have the 8:26am 23 monterey route. my favorite is this jolly black lady who is very friendly and likes to sing as she drives. she's also starting to remember me, and this morning she not only handed me a transfer that will last the whole day (she's saving me $1.25!), but she also gave me her business card and asked if she could come visit the zoo with her grandson sometime. i'm always relieved to see her pull up at the bus stop in the morning, because some of the other drivers are rather sour and it's amazing how much a friendly face will brighten your day.

i still can't fully wrap my hands around how FRUSTRATING people can be sometimes. the worst part is when they're supposed to be your closest friends and instead, you find yourself agonizing over their actions and wondering why you're friends with them in the first place. honestly, i'm getting over the fear of confrontation, but what i've learned from experience is that they still have issues with it. they either get all defensive and don't listen, or they get on the offensive themselves without stopping to think about what you've said or what they're saying. and that truly is tragic, because i know i've been trying hard to make things work, without any help from their side. i am tired of being taken advantage of and fed up with all the hypocrisy. you hear that? everyone's a hypocrite (myself included, at times), but i seem to be the only one who realizes it. get your fucking faces out of your own asses and think for a moment: the world does not revolve around you. and if you took a moment to see for yourself, you wouldn't be losing the person who cares about you the most. am i really the only person who gives a fuck?!

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